Birthday Reflection

This year, as I celebrate my birthday, I have to marvel at how God has directed my steps over the last year.  One year ago today, I was thrilled with the news that a birthmother had chosen us to adopt her child.  Because our social workers do not share news unless they are certain a placement will be made, we were optimistic that we would receive a baby the first week of November.  As I blew out my candles last year, I had one simple prayer, "God please give me a baby."  Later that week we would learn that the birthmother changed her mind after realizing that she had a daughter.  As heartbreaking as it was, to once again have a delay in our plans, I felt peace that the little girl was not meant to be ours.  You see, I felt deep in my heart that God had a son in mind for us.  I would have been thrilled to have a daughter, but I sensed that God was going to give us a son (my Samuel).  I had dreams about a little blue eyed, toe headed boy with a big smile.  Now that Liam has entered our lives, I can't imagine having any other child.  He was worth the wait.  I am not sure why God let us have disappointment last November, after all we had already been through, but I am certain that He worked everything out for our good.  He knew the desires of my heart and fulfilled my dreams.  So, this November I celebrate God's grace and faithfulness.  I will squeeze my little miracle and smother him with kisses.  Thank you God for my present this year!